I want to share something I've learned with 0-5 eating over the past few weeks. I wrote earlier about it being difficult for me to delve into the emotional overeating side of 0-5 eating. Some of the books I've read actually warn against talking about 0-5 with others as well as keeping journals on your 0-5 progress because by doing this you are still focusing on your food control. In writing about dealing with emotional overeating, I've found myself falling back into old overeating habits (crazy right?). I've remembered them and now it seems that some of them are back in my life and I'm currently trying to relearn how to deal with them.
In the past, family get-togethers were big overeating times for me. This hasn't been an issue for me for awhile now. In fact usually I don't even think about it anymore. But this last weekend we had family here visiting. Time and time again I found myself in the kitchen eating food that I wasn't hungry for. I know not to do this but I was doing it anyway. I'd then feel anger toward myself because of the overeating so I'd eat even more, stuffing unwanted food into my mouth as a kind of punishment to myself for letting the old habits sneak back in.
Eating as a punishment was already a tough one for me to overcome but over the weekend it was much worse than usual. For some reason I use stuffing myself to the point of pain as punishment for my inability to eat 0-5 every single time I eat. I'm still learning by trial and error just as you are.
I've also found that I go through cycles of doing well with 0-5, then "falling off the wagon". I'll eat really well and get into a good "groove" for awhile. Then out of the blue I'll suddenly start overeating. I'll do this for a few days or weeks (possibly months) until I can pull myself together and get back to 0-5 eating.
I wanted to share this so you can see that even though I'm writing this blog, I'm not perfect in 0-5 eating. I have my days when I completely stuff myself as well as my good days. Today has been a good day...so far :)
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It's good to know that you're.... I guess normal. Or maybe it's good to know that I'm normal with my sometimes great, and sometimes not doing so well. I think it's vitally important to be positive about yourself and your ability to eat 0-5 which may be part of why talking about the painful eating problems of the past can trigger more eating problems. The whole point is to learn to let all of that stuff go. Eat in a new way that makes you feel good about yourself, and get on with your life! It's something we all need to work on. Love You!
ReplyDeleteWith any recovery from an addiction there are triggers for our thought processes. Often times when the smoker smells a cigarette or an alcoholic sees a wine cooler in the supermarket or a porn addict sees a suggestive picture the brain reawakens the craving. It is crucial that you conciously make a change of thought. You have to give yourself a "Self Pep Talk". This is an opportunity to get into one of those projects you have been waiting for a rainy day to do. You will have to let the image or thought or "trigger" go. You have to get over it and DON'T DWELL ON IT! Pick up the pieces and move on. The sooner you refocus your thought process to more important things the sooner you will be able to get over this little bump. You can do it! I know you CAN! We all have to keep moving, pull it together and take another step. If you can't find the courage call your support. Call someone that knows your problems. Or someone that can give encouragement. Sometimes it is nice just to talk to someone else as a distraction. Most of the time you realize that your problems aren't really that bad.
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